here comes fall.

here comes fall.
Originally uploaded by kellypeach

today i was chilly from the second i woke up, until the moment when i reached into the dark depths of my closet, past all the tank tops and leggings, to the place where scarves, fuzzy hats, and gloves spend most of the year down here in sunny santa cruz.

i'm about to start preparing for my final set of exams. it's a two hour oral exam in front of four brilliant professors who have free reign to tear my total synthesis proposal to pieces. i am very nervous, but excited as well. if i pass this exam i will transition from a graduate student to a ph.d. candidate. it means i may actually be seeing this thing through.

so, i'm back to weekends spent in coffee shops pouring over pages of mechanisms. i'm back to feeling lonely and annoyed with school. back to questioning what the fuck i'm doing here. back to not taking good enough care of myself because i'm preoccupied. back to teaching.

wish there were more interesting things to say. i haven't been my normal passionate self lately. i seem to be attracted to damaged boys lately, that have temporarily lost their capacity to love. no pop-ups. no mail art. no romance. kind of a bummer. but, it's a good lull right? more time to focus on SCIENCE.

yay...