trying to breath

i didn't think that a broken heart would hurt so bad. i guess i should have figured. it is one of the many organs that must function properly in order to ensure survival. i just didn't think about that when i decided to give it away. don't worry though, i will guard it with all my power from now on. i won't give it away so effortlessly ever again.

i don't even know what to title this...how about...disappointment.

it's funny how when you get the feeling that something is wrong
or that you are being lied to, you usually are.

today has been an impressive day. i never knew i could ever be this
disappointed in the one person that is supposed to care the most about
me.

i never knew that someone could lie straight to my face for an entire semester.
i didn't know that was possible.

kelly

turtle envy

I really used to think that mr. clean was the coolest turtle around. He is a sick-nasty climber, he likes to swim into the glass to exercise, and he bites dan berg as much as he can. Mr. Clean just has style and attitude, he does want he wants. "Fuck authority," says Mr. Clean. But, this two headed turtle is pretty neat. The whole double brain think is fucking awesome. sorry mr. clean, there a new turtle on the block.

see ya later, from now on i only hang out with two headed turtles.

mr. clean grew a head!

what a crazy little double headed turtle. I love the quote about how the little dude must have two brains because he often tries to move two directions at once. fantastic. so silly. sometimes it's article about cutie-pie double headed turtles that convince me life is worth living!

here is the turtle story.

forget all that bullshit...

life fucking sucks, and that is how it is.
shitty, huh?
yeah, I think so too.

oh well, maybe the human race
will die off sooner rather than later,
and i won't have to worry about
all this shit anymore because
i will be burning in someone's idea of hell-fire.

right.

going post CRAZY, postal?

glaciers in the himalayas are melting. yowzer.

people are inventing mutations in bacteria in laboratories in order to predict the next structures that will resist our antibodies, so we can kill the mutations even before they have seen this world, this present time, this planet. nutty.

there are torch devices that can heat atomic particles up to 6000K. rockin'

realized fusion on this planet in the next twenty years is going to heat particles up to six times the temperature of the core of the sun, which is going to release a million times more energy by weight than gasoline (and it will be clean). crazy.

fuck man, technology rocks. i'm ready to study more chemistry.

kelly

ps. i don't think that all of the products of this technology are just or right, i just appreciate the ability to make crazy things reality.

life

life is crazy, that is the nature of life. it's huge and scary and wild. here is the thing, you can't let it get you down. there are too many neat things that will pass you by if you waste time worrying about shit that is a bummer because life doesn't pause. i think the main goal is to do things that make you happy. spend time relaxing and doing what you need to be happy, it sounds selfish, but if you do things that make you happy, then your entire being will feel better and people will enjoy you more. not because people are selfish and not because you should worry about whether people like you or not. this is positive because excited people inspire happiness. which, as i've mentioned, is key.

neat.

have a beautiful day.

enjoy the leaves on the ground.

life is fantabulous and it's there looking you in the eyes every moment, so run with it. get lost in it.

kelly

when rock climbing stops being fun

"Man, all these pulley systems are intimidating."

-tony

megan's fact o' the day

"did you know that a male panda does an average of 8 handstands a day. i swear, i read it in a magazine. I wonder how many that is in a lifetime. "
-megan

she will mail anyone that can tell her how many handstands a panda does in its lifetime a mixed cd. there it is. she said she doesn't do math, she only chemicalizes.

megan, you rock.